《初恋红豆冰》

As a Malaysian, as a Malaysian Fine Art Student, I finally watch the local film《Ice Kacang Puppy Love》 today… I feel so sorry as I didn’t support them in cinema, but I’m damn busy during that hour, please forgive me.

A Niu’s songs always give me a “Nanyang Taste” impression, I’ve watched a drama series called 《The Same Blue Sky》 when I’m still a child, the drama is about a group of youngster living their life between their fish village hometown and the big city. The theme song is also from A Niu’s song named 《The Same Blue Sky》, I always remind the scene when Lee Nam Xing went to the sea with his boat. Everytime I listen to this song while I’m studying in KL, it recalls me that under the same blue sky, my families are on the same land of this nation. In this film, the blue sky we see through the old shop building, the pond in the jungle, it reveals the memoir of my childhood.

身为马来西亚人，身为念纯美术系的马来西亚人，我到今天才看了《初恋红豆冰》……这部本地制作……没支持到票房实在有点惭愧，但那时恰逢我临时抱佛脚的紧要关头，所以也没办法啦。

阿牛这个创作人给我的印象一直都洋溢着浓浓的“南洋味”，小学时我看新加坡的连续剧《同一片蓝天》，当时是打着跨国卡式制作的电视剧，讲述渔港小镇的年轻人到大城市打拼，与故乡的縴絆，主打歌是阿牛的创作《同一片蓝天》，只记得那MV里李南星驾着渔船出海的镜头，我在吉隆坡念书时每每听到这段旋律，都会让我想起在故乡的家人故友，也一起凝望着这同一片蓝天。而在这部电影里，透过旧店屋望过去的蓝天，在森林里的小池子，都细细的透露着我所能回忆起的那份属于童年的南洋回忆。



Its is hard to narrate a story with a movie. The first impression for me after watching this movie is A Niu’s song , he success to tell a sorrow story in 4 minutes 51 seconds. I was attracted when I first listened to this song by his ending melody, I feel that my soul had been detached and enter the upset A Niu inside the song. As a narrative work, I prefer the song, I’m not trying to compare and debate which is better, as the touching feeling after watch (listen) a movie (song) is beyond the method they create the movie (song). The most different part between our life and the movie is, we really lack of Happy Ending, we can always rewind the movie (song) to appreciate it again and again, seeing what had our mind change in different age range, but our life, we could never flash back, what done is done, we can never make the choice again, that to make the decision with a mature way in the immature age. When our green age comes to an end, we can only shake our hand to the pass, and continue our journey to the future. 

要用一部电影来讲述一个故事是不简单的。看了这部电影第一个让我联想到的是阿牛的另一首创作《阿牛与阿花的故事》，四分钟五十一秒的时间里，把一段让人悲伤的故事阐述的凄凄动人，第一次听时就让我留下很深的印象，尤其是结尾时那无奈的结局，慢慢远去的旋律，仿佛我的心也被牵引进歌曲中阿牛苦苦等待的灵魂里。如果要说故事，我觉得《阿牛与阿花的故事》说得比《初恋红豆冰》还来得动人，当然不能同期而论啦，我只是想说我本身对于牛导的作品的感动，毕竟看（听）了一件作品所得到的感动是没有媒介之分的。人生与电影或小说故事最大的不同在于，我们实在缺乏Happy Ending，我更想说的是，电影小说我们想起那段情节是时还能拿起来从新品味一番，看看不同年龄的我们会用怎样的角度去重新理解那段故事，但生活却不能如此，过了，就是过了，我们不可能重新的作一次选择，用新的价值观去决定以前我们要走的路。青涩的年代过了，我们只能向往事挥一挥手，继续踏上生命的旅途。

Let’s talk about the movie, The scene is very attractive, I prefer than . I feel that the color tone in is too strong, that I could not even feel and see it in our life. But the grayish tone blended with colorful scene in did match with my memoirs. As a Johorian, my childhood memories is full of old building with stone lion, 2cm square blue mosaic, old shop lot with bird nest on the ceiling, grocery store with various size of glass and yellow bulb, and the wretched bus. When I travel out of my town, what I saw is stretch of oil palm estate. Although in my age we never play “Gohli”(bakuli) anymore, and no more “Fight fish” nor “Leopard Tiger”(a kind of fighting spider), but my father always told me that the age of his childhood they used to play these, and I feel that bakuli, fight fish, leopard tiger is also part of my childhood memories. Compare with the compact plot of , the plot of touched me as they are talking about the immatures’ puppy love, ambitious to their future and the helpless to the realism.
 
说回电影，画面感很强，跟《大日子》比起来我比较喜欢《初恋红豆冰》。我觉得《大日子》用的色调太过鲜艳了，艳蓝的天，大红大绿，那并不是我生活中会感受到的色调。而《初恋红豆冰》里用鲜艳的色系加上些许灰色调的处理，那个色调正契合了我回忆里的光景。作为一个Johor仔，童年的回忆就是有石狮子的老建筑，2CM乘2CM深蓝与浅蓝相隔的“磨石”，有燕窝在天花板的旧店物，昏黄的灯光下，摆满了大大小小的玻璃罐的杂货店，还有那看起来破破烂烂的巴士，虽然我的回忆中巴士的电动门是永远开着的，因为已经被司机用尼龙绳绑起来了，走出我住的小镇，沿途都是一大片一大片的油棕芭。虽然我这个年代的小孩已不再打“果粒”（Bakuli），也没有“打架鱼”与“豹虎”，但因为自小爸爸就会跟我说着他童年时的这些玩乐，结果仿佛他们也融进了我的童年回忆中。回忆的形式不是“从小打果粒”，而是“从小爸爸就跟我说他打果粒长大”。虽然我的故乡并没有怡保那么的有历史感，但他们的生活却确确实实的勾起了我的回忆。和《大日子》大起大落的剧情比起来，《初恋红豆冰》里年轻人青涩的恋爱，对理想的远志，对生活的抱负，对现实的无奈，更让我觉得感动。

“Movie can use as a storage, keeping the things such as these old bicycles, old shops, bakuli, fight fish into a glass box, and someday when these things had all gone, we can still recall of them with movie” The director said in the , I really agree with that.
In the ending, “Everybody left the small town, the white prince become a singer, white kopi opened his own coffee shop, and we never saw Malingfan and Malibing…” I almost shed my tears at the moment, Isn’t it true? We never met someone, maybe the friends we cherished the most after we’ve graduated. It is the step of our life that tear us apart, just like Botak and the Fight Fish, maybe we are just dwelling in the same city, maybe we’re just a few inch from our distance, but
The one that step onto the different journey, would never meet each other again.
 
看制作特辑时牛导的一句话让我深表认同，电影能够将一些东西保存起来，比如那些老脚车、老店、bakuli、打架鱼，将它们好像镶在玻璃柜里一样，也许那一天这些东西全部都消失了，我们还能藉着电影回味他们。
结局那一段，“大家都离开了小镇，白马王子当了歌手，白咖啡开了自己的咖啡店，我们再也没有看见马麟帆与马丽冰…”看到这一段我差点掉泪，是啊，我们毕业之后，不是很多好友就再也没有见过面吗？离开了故乡，不是很多曾经一起笑一起哭的朋友，就那样从此不再往来了吗？并不是自己喜新厌旧，而是生活的脚步就这样得让我们越走越远，就像结局里Botak与打架鱼一样，即使生活在同一座城市里，也许彼此之间的距离就是那么的几公尺，但是
注定踏上不同生命之旅的旅人，从此是不会再相见了的吧。




Is it the lonely way to grow up when we choose to leave our home? Look back, the memories are stored into the treasure crate of life, we could never feel that feeling again, but whenever we’ve been brought back to our memories by something. Those faces, are just so clear, Immature one, are just so clear.

是否离开故乡，就是阔别过去，走向孤独的成长之路？回头望，那些记忆就这样的被我们尘封在回忆的宝箱里头，也许这一生再怎么翻找，也找不回那时的体验，但偶尔被一些事情勾起那丝丝的回忆时，那些人的脸....都还历历在目.....当时天真的自己....也还历历在目......